My new favorite show

Ever since “Meerkat Manor” went off the air (remember Flower? Shakespeare? OMG that was the best show…) there has been a gaping hole in my life. The bird cams have helped a lot, but I think I have finally found the perfect replacement.

For a few days I watched the hawks, Big Red and Ezra.

Then I switched to the Peregrine Falcons at http://peregrinefund.org/webcam-peregrine.

It was awesome, but there was something a little too sleek and perfect about them; however, I do love that you can log observations.

Then Cornell announced a new web cam: Barn Owls.

Frankly, I think I’m hooked.

Pavisand

pavisand, v.
[‘ intr. To display an impressive or opulent array of clothing and ornament; to flaunt one’s appearance.’]
Male Anna's Hummingbird

Male Anna’s Hummingbird

When this word came up in my “word of the day” a few weeks ago, I immediately thought of the tiny little male Anna’s hummingbirds that sit on top of the trees, endlessly calling to impress mates.
I intended to wait until I got a good picture of a hummer and then use the word.
But today I went for a short hike after work and realized that everything is strutting it’s stuff.
Additionally, I saw the first trout lily in bloom, which is the earliest I’ve seen this favorite flower.
Trout lily (sometimes called a fawn lily)

Trout lily (sometimes called a fawn lily)

How can I sell that?

A couple days ago I got into a discussion with my friend about my post “Almost There.” My friend liked my painting and asked me how I could bear to sell it?

Today I had another conversation with a potential client who needed a price break on a piece she really liked.

The two conversations got me thinking.

When I paint, I paint as entertainment. I don’t claim to have an artistic vision that is driving me; I enjoy the process of developing an idea.

Not all my ideas turn out great. About once a year I go camping and burn all my failed attempts. No gasping, please. I find this an incredibly cathartic experience. Afterward, I feel free. I don’t have to drag around all the failures and mistakes.

The pieces that turn out are pieces I’m proud of. They may not be perfect, but I succeeded in conveying my idea.

From here what I hope is that my pieces will find a home where that idea is appreciated as much as I enjoyed creating it.

"Eye Contact" - 2014 (unfinished version)

“Eye Contact” – 2014 (unfinished version)

Occasionally I create a piece that I think is best left with me. One piece is “Eye Contact.” When I went to Hawaii last year I went on a dolphin tour and had a great time. On our final trip into the water, one of the dolphins came up and, I swear, looked me right in the eye. This painting is about that moment. It’s special to me… more special than I think it would be to anyone else.

"Sizing Up the Competition" - 2014 (final adjusted version)

“Sizing Up the Competition” – 2014 (final adjusted version)

On the other hand, “Sizing Up the Competition” is much less personal. It’s a work that started out with a good photo and evolved. I hope it conveys the excitement and chaos of the racecourse, the beauty of horses, and the close quarters as the horses go around the track. The perfect home for this piece will enjoy those aspects of the painting.

If I had unlimited space and no monetary constraints, I might keep all my paintings. But I don’t think so. I like the idea that someone else might enjoy my paintings as much as I enjoy the paintings that I collect.

Not Sam Savitt

Today I went to Stacey Riggs‘ barn to watch the second half of a foundation workshop and her “Meet the Mustang” demo.

I took my sketchbook and vowed to work a little on my “plein air” horse technique. I know Stacey’s barn is too dark for good photos, and I am nervous about my October “Plein Air in the Paddock” workshop in Kentucky.

Not as good as Sam Savitt’s sketches, but at least I’m doing the work!

After the clinic I enjoyed Stacey’s demo with her new mustang, General George. Because it’s difficult to get picture, I was only able to capture a few of the more “slow moments.”

But only 44 days out of the corals and a week from his first competition, George looks great to me! I know Stacey is looking for help funding her competition with George, so if you are interested you can go to her Go Fund Me page.

It was a dark and stormy day…

The rumor is that March goes out like a lamb. Ha! But Finn was promised a hike and I know the Trilliums are blooming, so to Canemah we went.

This is the beginning of one of my favorite seasons in Canemah. I swear if you miss a day you can miss a whole life cycle of some plant you never knew existed.

Bittercress

Bittercress

I don’t remember ever seeing this plant before, but when I looked it up I identified it as Bittercress, a bog-loving Northwest relative of watercress.

The plants that I call “fairy wands” are starting to come out as well. I stopped at the library after our hike and checked out a book that helped me identify them as “Twin Flower” (Linnaea bordealis) with this charming description:

What I call fairy wand is really "Twin Flower"

What I call fairy wand is really “Twin Flower”

“The twin peak bells are delightfully fragrant. The plant makes a beautiful ground cover. Carolus Linnaeus of Sweden helped develop the system of combining a generic and a specific name to form the species name of plants and animals. It is said the the Twin Flower bears his name because it was his favorite flower.” (Wildflowers of the Inland Northwest, page 91)

Madrone

Madrone

Everything–the trees, the trail, the flowers–was wet to the extreme. But in the case of the madrone trees, it helped show off their exquisite color.

Sure enough, the Western Trilliums were blooming. The first time I remember hearing about this plant was in high school when one of my classmates did a presentation about why it was important not to pick them (when picked, they won’t rebloom). I thought I remember a little legend she told about the flower to remind people not to pick them, but when I went online to look for the legend the only one I was able to find was this one: Do not pick the flower or you will have bad luck; but kissing a trillium means you will find love.

In spite of the weather, everything is just about to bloom.

This young twig waits for better weather before releasing its leaves and setting its blooms.

This young twig waits for better weather before releasing its leaves and setting its blooms.

Easily Entertained

The last couple of years, I have been captivated by the bird cams hosted by the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. The first year it was the Red-Tailed Hawks that caught my fancy, followed by the antics of the Great Blue Herons (with their FIVE babies!)

Last year I mainly watched the Kestrels (with only three babies, the herons were less frantic.)

This year the Red-tailed Hawks (Big Red and Ezra) have already started their brood, with three eggs laid. Three has been their number, so I’m not holding my breath for another egg.

Big Red

I started watching in earnest today. My favorite moment was toward the end of the day when Ezra flew to the nest to offer Big Red a nice juicy mouse. She deigned to take it and leave, and Ezra settled in for a nice snuggle with his kids, tenderly rolling them before settling down flat to protect them from the wind and rain. About an hour later, BR came back. Ezra wasn’t ready to give up his time, so she came over and stood on him until he gave up.

Their tails are so great.

Their tails are so great.

I’m so easy to amuse.

 

Almost there….

I have been battling a variety of physical complaints this week that have kept me close to home and more inclined to sleep than paint.

However, I did go to painting class and today went to the TRAG gallery where I put–what I think is–the finishing touch on my newest piece: “Sizing Up the Competition.”

"Sizing Up the Competition" - 2014 - 22"x15"

“Sizing Up the Competition” – 2014 – 22″x15″

While there are many difficult stages in the painting process, I think the most intellectually challenging stage is figuring out when enough is enough.

It’s a common problem. I’ve heard a number of successful artists talk about this challenge.

“Overworking” a painting is a common mistake. It’s when an artist goes back and tries to fix something… and fix something… and fixes it again until the purity of the brushstrokes are lost.

Additionally, artists are always learning. I’ve heard authors with a long print history talk about the benefits or drawbacks of re-editing previously published pieces. On one hand, it was the story they want to tell then and the best they could do at that time; on the other, time has marched on and the author has learned additional lessons.

I’ve sat in critique groups where painters brought in paintings years old that they were still thinking about changing. While I see their point, I have often advised to start over; why battle with the mistakes of your past self? If a piece takes more than about 6 months to finish, I think you’re done. If you are still interested in the subject, start over.

The other extreme also has it’s merits: “It’s done when I say it’s done.” And into a drawer it goes.

For me, my best paintings have a lot done quickly, then months in critiques making minor changes. Patricia Schmidt describes this process “tiptoeing”. It’s a good description.

This painting has sat on my wall for two weeks and each time I passed it I thought to myself, that spot (the small dark triangle on the upper mid painting) needs to be darker. Today, I made that change. It took less than five minutes and it improved the painting so much.

I still think the grey’s nostrils should be darker, but I’m going to think about it for a couple more days to be sure. Then… well, you never know. I might call it “done.”

588 Photos: The Reason to Edit

Today I went on a wildlife viewing tour of Sauvie Island with Oregon Wildlife. Originally this tour was supposed to coincide with the Audubon Society of Portland’s Annual Raptor Road Trip, but “Snowmagedon” caused everything to shut down.

We observed a small herd of deer with yearling in tow first thing. No sign of spring fawns yet.

We observed a small herd of deer with yearling in tow first thing. No sign of spring fawns yet.

I had a great time and used my mom’s big camera (she’s had it loaned it to me for over a month) to take as many photos as possible. 588 to be precise.

After editing out all the blurry ones, vague tree shots, and black ones (oops, camera lens still on…) I was still left with a bounty of future reference photos.

Of course, the Sandhill cranes stole the show. But I was amazed at the variety of birds, particularly waterfowl. We saw several kinds of Canadian geese: cackling, Travener’s, and Dusky. I wished I had spent more time with the ducks. There were snow geese (SO many) and even a few Tundra swans.

The other time I went on the Raptor Road Trip, I saw more raptors in numbers, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t see plenty today.

But arguably the most exciting find was the heron rookery. I had heard they were there on the island, but I had never known where to look. This HUGE one was just off the road.

Going through them to pick out the best ones for my reader’s viewing pleasure, I noticed the the key to future paintings was almost certainly going to be editing.

Case in point. This photo of swans. It’s nice, but a little bland.

Roughly cropped swan photo.

Roughly cropped swan photo.

But after I examined it, I decided it would look a lot better like this:

Severely cropped swan photo.

Severely cropped swan photo.

This way I can see the painting I will work on. I’ll mask out the swans and do a pour, then take off the masking and put in the detail.

Similarly, there was something about these cranes that I found amusing and I took  many photos of them.

A group of Sandhill cranes.

A group of Sandhill cranes.

It wasn’t until I applied the ol’ crop tool in Photoshop, that I realized what the punch line was. It was their posture. The other cranes and the background obscured the potential rhythm of the piece.

The start of a painting.

The start of a painting.

For this potential painting I see something more geometric to accent the fluidity of their poses. And a title that helps the story along….

Anyway, 588 photos, a trip to see the horses at Sound Equine Options (a bunch of adoptions this week!), and a quick trip to a fiber (think knitting) sale. I’m a tired girl (also still itchy.)

Itchy and crazy

When I was about six I had my tonsils out. This was a good thing because until then I had spent a lot of time sick.

In fact, one of my earliest memories is waking up and not feeling well and having my mom scold me for not wanting to do morning stuff. As I sat sulking at the breakfast table, she offered me a banana. I took one bite and promptly threw up all over the kitchen floor. I remember my mom as being both disgusted and relieved, “Oh, that’s why you are so cranky.”

The rest of that day was spent feeling miserable, throwing up, having my temperature taken, and eventually going to the doctor.

So at about six (closer to seven?) I had my tonsils out. Frankly, I didn’t understand, but I was told that I would get unlimited ice cream. Sounds great, right?

No.

I didn’t like the hospital experience; strange people in masks told me to count things and then I woke up calling for my mom in a strange room. I couldn’t go to the bathroom without help. And when food finally arrived, I didn’t want to eat… not even the ice cream.

Once I got home I didn’t feel much better and ice cream still didn’t sound good.

Then it snowed. As I’ve previously stated, Oregon snow is pretty infrequent; that year we got a good, heavy cover. And I could only sit on the couch, sick, watching all my friends playing on the street in the lovely snow.

I remember sitting on that couch, so longing to play in the snow, feeling physically and spiritually miserable. My mom was about in tears too because she wanted to see me play too.  Eventually Mom and Dad bundled me up and took me outside for a few minutes. It was great… except it didn’t solve my problem of still feeling miserably bad. But I remember it making me feel better that my parents were trying.

All this is to say that when I get sick, I go immediately back to my six-year-old self, sitting on the couch feeling miserable and longing to go outside in the snow.

Fortunately, until I was in my thirties, I was pretty healthy. The occasional cold, a few shots, one really bad splinter in my… rump.  My doctor’s visits were minimal and usually centered around solving some immediate and easily-solved problem. In most cases I walked in, stated my problem, and walked out again in under 10 minutes.

Then in the late winter of 2006 (at 31) I developed a cough. A year later a pulmonologist diagnosed me with hypersensitivity pneumonitis (hives in my lungs) brought on by an allergy to my parrot. My blood oxygen was down to 60%, I couldn’t speak in full sentences, let alone walk and talk. The doctor wanted to put me in the hospital for two weeks; we settled on putting the bird (Joey) into boarding to see if I got any better. I did and eventually Joey got a new home. I’m still heartbroken about that.

During the period between December 2005 and March 2007, I had 7 colds and two cases of pneumonia. Toward “the end” I spent every day in some form of discomfort. I had scratch tests for allergies, an upper barium GI for stomach problems, and countless blood draws. There were points I really thought I would die, or at the least be diagnosed with cancer. In fact, some days I almost wished to be diagnosed with cancer just so the doctors would finally understand there was really something wrong with me.

This period remains the worst singular period in my life. While 2011 will always be my “Année terrible”, 2006 will remain as my “Année maladie”. I spent it in varying states of sulking, pouting, misery, and anger. While I had never exactly liked doctors, this period convinced me they were all evil. One doctor (one I eventually left and filed a complaint about) actually got up in the middle of a sentence to answer his cell phone and had a five minute conversation with the person at the other end (and it was a pretty personal phone call… if you catch my drift.) Never mind the suffering patient in his office. She was only an obvious hypochondriac who had been at his office once a week for the last month trying to solve the trifling problem of hacking up her lungs!

All this is to say that when any health problem troubles me, no matter how small, I have to wade through a morass of emotion and bad memories in order to get to the small amount of reasonableness, practicality, and sensibility that remain.

Any woman who had read an article about “talking to your doctor” in the last few years knows that you had to stand up for yourself when interacting with members of the medical community. Gone are the days of blithely putting yourself in a doctor’s care and allowing him to choose what’s best. Today it’s imperative to ask questions and be informed about medical care.

Last year, just as life seemed to be settling down, I developed pneumonia in my right lung. That re-started a four-month-long version of “the horror.” Even once I finally kicked the pneumonia I still haven’t been able to get my breathing completely back to where it was. I have had to add a daily inhaler to my medicine cabinet, and this week I tried a new pill for additional help.

It seems I am allergic to the pill as one week after starting to take it I broke out into full body hives. This, in addition to the patch of poison oak I wandered into two weeks ago, had made me a very itchy mess.

And so I’m right back on my mental sofa, looking outside and pouting.

This is not an especially productive state when it comes to health matters. Doctors in the overworked Kaiser system do not respond to pouting. They sometimes don’t even respond to direct requests. But I’m stumped as to what my next step should be.

The reason I started my new medication was that the inhaled asthma medicine wasn’t enough. I was still struggling constantly to feel as though I had enough air. I had begun avoiding walks with the dog and, frankly, I can’t afford that (let alone what Finn thinks).

One of the many frustrating things about getting to this kind of impasse with doctors is that inevitably I feel like they think I’m crazy. An excerpt from a recent conversation: “Hives is a pretty unusual side effect of this medication.” So what? I’m making it up? When I go to the website for Singulair, rash is the first listed side effect. What are they implying?

I suspect the answer is they are not implying anything. They are either just making conversation, an oblique apology, or trying to convince me not to sue them. I don’t want to sue anybody… I just want to breathe.

I’ll spend my weekend concentrating on surviving my hives and then re-examine my options next week. When, hopefully, I’m a little saner. And even more hopefully, less itchy.

Moonglow and Spring Caps

I went to painting class tonight and Anji announced that she had started a painting for the June Rose Festival Show at Oregon Society of Artists.

"Tara-inspried" background for Anji's latest painting. Subdued?

“Tara-inspried” background for Anji’s latest painting. Subdued?

Her introduction was “this one is Tara-inspired”. When she showed us, I immediately recognized one of my favorite colors: Moonglow by Daniel Smith. But she went on to say “its subdued.”

Huh.

Moving on…

I don’t have any new art to post, so I’m going to put up pictures from Sunday’s hike at Canemah. They are pretty.

Canemah is a hair breath away from spring bloom. I saw the season’s first wood violet.

The season's first yellow wood violet.

The season’s first yellow wood violet.

Some Facebook friends have already put up their first trillium photos, but I haven’t seen one yet.

And this plant (it’s some sort of flowering bush that is just green for the rest of the year; I think maybe a crabapple) is proudly strutting its stuff around the wet landscape.

Mystery bush.

Mystery bush. I’ll call it a spring cap.

But honestly, it’s pretty quiet around here. I was sick for several days last week, which limited my mobility. And pesky ole work consumed the rest of my time.

I’ll try hard to come up with a better story or new art… or something… soon.

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