Studio Initiation

With the word “opening” but COVID on the rise, I am very much hunkered down at home. Last week we got word that the work from home orders will extend through August.

Yesterday was the summer equinox. We’re just about halfway through 2020. And who could have foreseen what a year it was going to be! I thought it was a good time to check out my 2020 goals and see if anything could be salvaged.

  • Area 1: Health and Fitness (lol)
  • Area 2: Friendships (additional lol)
  • Area 3: Spiritual development (downright chuckle)
  • Area 4: Work/Career & Finances (doing okay here at least)
  • Area 5: Personal Growth (aka Painting) (I don’t even know how to address this because so much has changed or been cancelled. But I’ve done what hasn’t been canceled.)
  • Area 6: Fun (lol)

So, yeah. Plans.

Still, under the all the specifics I put out these broad thoughts.

  • I will learn: What I like in a church (#3)
  • I will travel to: A new adventure (#6)
  • I will take a class on: A workplace skill (#4)
  • I will meet: A new friend (2)
  • I will create: A more personal painting style (#5)
  • I will stop: Taking my body for granted (#1)

Which brings me to painting.

This was my normal (every two weeks) three day weekend. I spent most of it moving more into the house. Almost all artwork is up. I found a dining table I like. I rearranged the mater bedroom (just need for that mattress to show up…) And I finally got the studio into shape enough to paint a little.


The color is a little off, but it’s starting to take shape.

I also signed up for a six month artistic mentorship program with favored instructor Ruth Armitage. In a couple of weeks the program will start. In the meantime I need to select a painting for critique. And I’m also supposed to journal on one or two of these topics.

  • If I could create art about only one thing it would be________________.
  • I am attracted to _________ in the works of other artists.
  • A creative stumbling block for me is __________.
  • My favorite thing about making art is _____________.

I’m pondering these really hard.

Chapters

I’ve been thinking a lot about chapters. According to the Mirriam Webster dictionary, chapter has at least three definitions, including this one: period of time that is very different from the period of time before it. The problem is that many times, chapters aren’t easy to define.

2019 was absolutely influenced (read dominated) by the death of my mom in late 2018. Everything that happened was viewed through the lens of my grief. The tasks of cleaning out her house, arranging her memorial, and finishing her estate kept everything at the forefront of my thoughts and actions.

In late 2019, I experienced several cathartic events that made me hopeful that 2020 would be a different experience. Also, around this time, I began working on my show for the Salem Art Association (opening is March 6th!) That’s been another obsessive task that has left me very little time to do anything other than paint and work.

But this weekend, I’m putting the last touches on the paintings before packing them up for transport.

This means that it’s time for me to turn my attention forward. So, it’s time for me to make an announcement.

I’ve decided to move.

When I bought this house, I was looking for something close to work (check) with a first floor bedroom and bath in case Mom ever needed to come live with me (check). Other than that, I was pretty flexible. I wanted a single story, no basement (check), and a parking space (check). In retrospect, I think I was a little too flexible.

This house has been a good house, but it has not been a great house. I have loved the neighborhood and the commute, but the house never really fit into the way I live. For example, when I’ve had a foster dog who needs to work on potty training, it’s been a nightmare of stairs and dashing between rooms. When I’ve been sick or hurt, getting up and down the stairs has been difficult. The house is hot in the summer and cold in the winter, with the kitchen being the hottest area and the living room being the coldest.

All of that was pretty doable. No house was perfect. Then, the trouble started.

This is a picture of my crawl space. There are at least two things of note here. 1) As you can see the vapor barrier (plastic stuff on the ground) is all mussed up. This prevents it from doing its job and therefore there is a lot of water and dirt on everything down here. And to an extent, in the house. 2) There are posts holding the house up.

To make a long, agonizing story as short as possible, after working with three potential contractors (seven if you could the other things I had bid), it was determined to make the crawl space and foundation up to code would be a job over $50,000. This did not include the additional jobs such as bringing the electric box up to code (at least $5,000), a new heating/cooling system ($8,000), and new floors to replace the carpet (obviously optional, but the one thing I really wanted; $10,000).

At this point, I started to run numbers. I had purchased the house right before the market in Salem really started to rise. If I added purchase price to all of the above issues, I would still, essentially, be at market value. But just barely.

Then I started thinking about the stairs, the flood insurance (costly due to location), and parking problems. I ran a second set of numbers and determined that if I sold the house “as is” in its current condition, there was a good chance I could get at least my original money back. Fortunately, I purchased the house for cash, so interest wasn’t a factor. Breaking even would mean I had essentially had five years free rent, which is not something to sneeze at.

Finally, I started to think about not just the inconveniences, but if this house really served me. While it’s location (near my job) was still great, so many other things had changed. I had fewer pets and a smaller family than I did five years ago. I owned an additional home. Could I find a smaller, Salem home that would allow me more time at the beach? Could I turn the beach house into a weekend art studio?

So, I called my realtor. It turns out, she is having her first baby in mid February (probably, baby is now on the ground.) So, we talked about it, and with everything going on my life, we decided putting the house on the market in late March or early April would be the best plan.

I’m trying to think of this as deliberately starting a new chapter instead of thinking about all the things that have ended to make this necessary. But the decision feels very bittersweet.

Where will I go from here? Well, other than a pretty small checklist, I again intend to be flexible; however, last time taught me that my list needs to be longer than two, so here’s a preview.

  1. Single story
  2. Garage
  3. Not in a 100-year floodplain
  4. Open concept
  5. No more than 1500 square feet (about 1000 preferred)
  6. Neighborhood with good sidewalks for walking the dog
  7. Close to work preferred

I think that’s enough to be going on with, at least for now.

With the house being sold “as is” I have no idea if it will be a quick sale or long and protracted (uggg). In the meantime, now that the painting marathon is over, I’m beginning to work my way through the house, deciding on items to sell, take to the beach, or keep with me. No matter what happens, I have time, but I’m hoping a little extra work will make the actual move easier (of course, it won’t.)

So, that’s all the news for right now.

P.S. As a final note, a friend just texted me. I Feel Pretty just got into the WSO Spring Exhibition!

I think I may officially be at my exciting painting news limits!

2020 Goals

Heading into 2020, I feel a little daunted. Last year I put my goals in a new format in an attempt to recognize that it would be a tough year for me. I think that gave me the space to grieve Mom’s death (not that that will stop), but it was demonstrably a less effective way of getting things done.

As always at this time of year, lots of memes and posts go up about what to do in the new year and how to do it (see art above). I was particularly drawn to a post that invited you to fill out the answers to these questions:

  • I will learn:
  • I will travel to:
  • I will take a class on:
  • I will meet:
  • I will create:
  • I will stop:

However, that doesn’t really hit the “sweet spot” for me. So, I’ll have to muddle through with my own ideas.

Area 1: Health and Fitness

  • Embrace the WW journal. Make it a priority!
  • Find a source for yoga and/or meditation and go to it
  • Participate in walking challenges (particularly with the dog)
  • Get 8 hours sleep (this means going to bed early)
  • Remember that alone time is an important part of my mental health
  • Do NOT overextend yourself (be on boards, volunteer too much)

Area 2: Friendships

  • I need to develop some new friendship (or at least closer friendships). Following the advice in Friendships Don’t Just Happen, I will invite a new person out to coffee once a month. (This is daring for me!)

Area 3: Spiritual development

  • Church: Find a church you like and go
  • WSO: Continue volunteering for website
  • Foster 4 dogs in 2020
  • Explore purchasing environmentally better clothing

Area 4: Work/Career & Finances

  • Remain employed
  • Better understand finances
  • Donate to charity

Area 5: Personal Growth (aka Painting)

  • Keep my website current
  • Write at least 52 posts
  • Attend critique group
  • Develop and attend the March SAA solo show
  • Apply for the Alaska AIR
  • Enter these shows:
    • Enter both WSO shows
    • Enter the Equine Art Show (Emerald Downs)
    • Submit to the AAEA Shows
    • Submit to both NWWS Shows
    • Submit to Emerald Art Center show

Area 6: Fun

  • Reading: Goodreads 2020 Book Challenge
  • Nose work with Key: Earn NW3, work toward all L2 Element Specialites
  • Knitting: Finish 6 projects
  • Go on one adventure
  • Explore the Hallie Ford art museum
  • Visit the Salem carousel
  • Continue bird watching
  • Participate in the 2020 NaNoWriMo

I think six areas is ambitious enough. So, going back to the list that I said I was drawn to, I filled it out like this.

  • I will learn: What I like in a church (#3)
  • I will travel to: A new adventure (#6)
  • I will take a class on: A workplace skill (#4)
  • I will meet: A new friend (2)
  • I will create: A more personal painting style (#5)
  • I will stop: Taking my body for granted (#1)

How’s the blogging going – 2019 version

For each of the six years I have been blogging, I have posted a fairly geeky post about my progress and numbers. It’s something I look forward to, and it helps me get an idea of what the next year might look like.

Posts and Other Numbers

2014 2015 2016 2017 2018 2019
Posts 158 124 71 64 112 41
Sessions 2899 7081 2700 2277 3545 7388
Users 1262 5108 1691 1334 2795 6235
Page Views 9790 13586 7009 7925 9888 14355

Not surprisingly, my post numbers were down. There were long stretches of time when I didn’t write. Additionally, over the summer I redid the website, which took all of my time.

However, I am shocked by the uptick in users and page views. The new website is nice, but I’m not sure what else could be doing that. This year analytics reports I had an lot of “organic search” results, but also a lot of “bounces.” Oh, well.

Data Trends

As you can see, unlike last year, the trend is going up.

Most popular posts (by month)

Conclusion

For a tough year, not too bad!

2019 Goals in Review

Well, just a few more hours of 2019. It was one for the books.

Last year, knowing it would be a tough year, I did my goals slightly differently. I tried to be less (ha ha) goal oriented. And, well, not as much got done. I’m okay with that, and it was probably unavoidable. But in 2020, I’m planning to back to a more concrete system.

The items in blue were accomplished. Items in red were not. Items in green are partial.

Stop

  • Taking painting commissions
  • Stop entering plein air unless you really find you enjoy it
  • Take fewer workshops (limit to Skip Lawrence)
  • Mom’s Estate (the goal here is to be done with it by the end of the year)
  • Trying to fix other people
  • Taking things personally

Start

  • Establish MY style when I paint
  • Get my website current and keep it that way
  • Submit my paintings to these new events:
    • Submit to the River Gallery Wild Women show
    • Submit to Community Supported Arts & Culture
    • Submit to Salem Art Association event
  • Taking care of my body
  • Find a source for yoga and/or meditation and go to it
  • Get 8 hours sleep (this means going to bed early)
  • Making time for friends
  • 52 books for the Goodreads 2019 Reading Challenge
  • Allowing myself to admit that I don’t like certain things

Continue

  • Blog at least once a week about art
  • Attend critique group
  • Continue to enter these shows:
    • Enter both WSO shows
    • Enter the Equine Art Show (Emerald Downs)
    • Submit to the AAEA Shows
    • Submit to both NWWS Shows
    • Submit to Emerald Art Center show
  • Go to Weight Watchers regularly
  • Caring about the environment
    • Not taking plastic bags at the store; use reusable bags (2013)
    • Using coffee cups at coffee place (2014)
    • Picking up after the dog every time (2015)
    • Not consuming palm oil (2016)
    • Less car, more bike (2017)
    • Energy audit my house (2018)
    • DIY household products (2019)
  • Training Key in nose work (Got NW2, NW3 Container, NW3 Exterior, L1E, L1V, L2I titles this year)
  • Remember that alone time is an important part of my mental health

Seven months was all she wrote*

August marks seven months since Mom’s death, so I’m more than halfway through “the official year”. And because I’m a planner, I’m starting to look ahead to what 2020 might bring. August will also mark what would have been Mom’s 72 birthday. I’m not someone who normally marks that kind of thing, but it does make me sad. It seems like such a young age in today’s world.

On that note, the rest of this post is going to be seven random things in my life.

1 – I entered the Watercolor Society of Oregon show

Lately, I  have been doing less journaling and more painting. So when the WSO deadline came up, I entered two pieces.

Fingers crossed!

2 – I’ve engaged a company to start work on repairing the beach house

On the advice of my therapist, I took a few weeks just… off from the beach house problem. Then a couple of weeks ago I did some research on whether the house should just go up for sale as is or should be put back together again. Turns out, it’s significantly more valuable “put together” so I had to make some decisions. I found a company, Wildwood Design Center, that could do the job and this weekend I stayed at the beach house (even in its current condition, it’s pretty good) and pondered design options.

I think we all know which one I’ll choose.

3 – The journaling goes apace

Hydrangeas are blooming right now, so they have been featured regularly.

4 – Birding (and wildlife watching) goes apace

5 – Weight loss

I’ve had some health challenges the last few months that I just don’t even want to discuss anymore. My health insurer has set up a healthy eating class which I am attending on Thursday nights (in addition to WW). While I won’t say I feel “inspired” I am feeling more into making good choices, which is a step in the right direction.

6 – Key-the-dog (official title)

Key’s official title is “the dog” and he would like to report that while the training to retrieve is not going well, this nosework thing is just THE BEST. He went to a trial a few weeks ago and it went MUCH better than the last one (though no title). He would like to show off a recent search, but Tara is too lazy to upload the photo. So we’ll just include this picture of him enjoying the beach.

Note the low, tired tail.

7 – A newsletter

After an absence of a year (gulp), I finally send out a newsletter using my Mail Chimp account (which you can sign up for on this page.) It wasn’t a newsletter to set the world on fire, but I did announce a summer studio sale, which I am willing to pass on, even if you didn’t sign up for my newsletter!

I’m offering the following discount through the end of summer (September 2, 2019): Take 10% off the listed price of 2018 pieces, 20% off 2017 pieces, 30% off 2016 pieces, 40% off 2015 pieces, and 50% off any pieces from 2014 or earlier.

On that note, please check out my paintings page before you go to see if anything strikes your fancy!

 

 

*Note: The title of this post is a play on one of my favorite Sting songs. It’s not a reference to either murder or finishing anything. On the contrary, this post is more about moving forward.

Out of the fog

The last few days, I have been noticing that I feel a little clearer. Concentrating seems a little easier. I feel less raw and emotional.

Of course, this isn’t to say I don’t feel emotions. I am still tired (as an emotion), but it’s getting better. It seems to be replaced with irritation or anger. I’m not sure it’s an improvement.

It’s been the better part of three weeks since Mom died. And just over two months since “the diagnosis”. Time marches on.

I’ve made good headway on working her estate.

  • Notified banks
  • Notified life insurance
  • Gone through bills
  • Identified and called medical/prescription issues
  • Changed and cancelled auto-pay items (except for house)
  • Identified a CPA (done early in process)
  • Meet with estate lawyers (today) to start probate

As for the physical side of her stuff, Mom has essentially been moved out of the Salem house, though there is the beach house to address. Sigh.

I had intended to go to the beach this weekend, but it’s just too busy, so it’s on the schedule for next week.

I recently read Marie Kondo’s book, and I’ve decided to try to use it (heaven help me) to go through this process. My goal is to sort all my stuff, Mom’s stuff, and my various grandparent stuff (4 in all) into one house of things that I love and value. It won’t happen overnight, but I’m trying to take steps so that over the course of the next year, I can achieve my goal.

2019 promises to be hard. The trick is to keep things as simple as possible (yes, I hear you laughing along with me). But maybe by 2020, I’ll know where I’m headed.

2019 Goals

For the first time that I can remember, undoubtedly due to Mom’s recent death, I find myself looking forward to the year ahead and not really knowing how it should look. In some ways, so much is on my plate that wasn’t before. In other ways, there is a lot I don’t have to worry about or do.

The goals that I feel most drawn to right now are goals like “take it easy on yourself” and “give it time.” A Facebook friend posted this thought:

Instead of resolutions, ask yourself:

  • What do I need to Stop?

  • What do I need to Start?

  • What do I need to Continue?

So, as I sit down to contemplate the year ahead, I am going to reorganize my list into those categories.

Stop

  • Taking painting commissions
  • Stop entering plein air unless you really find you enjoy it
  • Take fewer workshops (limit to Skip Lawrence)
  • Mom’s Estate (the goal here is to be done with it by the end of the year)
  • Trying to fix other people
  • Taking things personally

Start

  • Establish MY style when I paint
  • Get my website current and keep it that way
  • Submit my paintings to these new events:
  • Taking care of my body
  • Find a source for yoga and/or meditation and go to it
  • Get 8 hours sleep (this means going to bed early)
  • Making time for friends
  • 52 books for the Goodreads 2019 Reading Challenge
  • Allowing  myself to admit that I don’t like certain things

Continue

  • Blog at least once a week about art
  • Attend critique group
  • Continue to enter these shows:
  • Go to Weight Watchers regularly
  • Caring about the environment
    • Not taking plastic bags at the store; use reusable bags (2013)
    • Using coffee cups at coffee place (2014)
    • Picking up after the dog every time (2015)
    • Not consuming palm oil (2016)
    • Less car, more bike (2017)
    • Energy audit my house (2018)
    • DIY household products (2019)
  • Training Key in nose work
  • Remember that alone time is an important part of my mental health

2018 Goals in Review

2018: A year that changed dramatically from what was planned. Still, progress was made.

The items in blue were accomplished. Items in red were not. Items in green are partial.

Painting

  • Keep painting
  • Finish the commission that is taking FOREVER
  • Do RB homework
  • Write at least once a week (goal on Sunday) about your art
  • Attend critique group (did a few times, but more often was doing other things)
  • Enter both WSO shows
  • Enter the Equine Art Show (Emerald Downs)
  • Submit to the AAEA Show
  • Submit to both NWWS Shows (new goal for 2018)
  • Submit to Emerald Art Center show
  • Organize and attend Ruth Buchanan workshop (2018 drawing)
  • Participate in local art group Artists in Action
    • Participate in Paint the Town
    • Fall Studio Sale with Artists in Action

Health

  • Go to Weight Watchers regularly
    • Eat more vegetables
    • Eat less sugar
    • Eat more fiber
    • Drink water
  • Participate in walking challenges (particularly with the dog)
  • Find a source for yoga and/or meditation and go to it
  • Go to physical therapy; improve knee and foot – I believe I did this, but as I’m still struggling, I am not giving myself full credit for this.
  • Write at least once a week (goal on Wednesday) about your weight loss
  • Get 8 hours sleep (this means going to bed early)

Reading

  • Goodreads 2018 Book Challenge: 104 books (accomplished 86)
    • 2017 goal – 86 of 104
    • 2016 goal = 100 of 100
    • 2015 Goal = 100 of 100
    • 2014 Goal = 80 of 90
    • 2013 Goal = 118 of 125
    • 2012 Goal = 111 of 200
    • 2011 = 56 of 50

Writing

  • Edit and finalize the book I “finished” during the 2017 NaNoWriMo
  • Participate in the 2018 NaNoWriMo

Pets

  • Do a walk after work, hike on the weekends
  • Get Key Odor Recognition Trial (ORT) certified
  • Participate in 4 trials (including ORT)
  • No more cats if Bob dies

Home and Garden

  • Water my new front yard to ensure the plants don’t die
  • Put in my Little Free Library area
  • Improve kitchen table area

Environmental

  • Continue 2013 goal of not taking plastic bags at the store
    • Use reusable bags
  • Continue 2014 goal of using coffee cups at coffee place
  • Continue 2015 goal of picking up after the dogs every time
  • Continue 2016 goal of not consuming palm oil
  • Improve on 2017 goal of scaling back on car use
    • Bike to work at least 3 of 5 days per week
  • 2018 goal: energy audit my house

Knitting

  • Finish four projects
  • Investigate a knitting group

Money

  • Let’s just put it out there that I can improve…
  • Donate to charity

Volunteering

  • Church – website and tech team
  • WSO – website and fall convention
  • State Food Drive planning
  • Decide on a volunteer project (either Food Bank or Fostering Dogs) and do it!

Career

  • Remain employed
  • Say hello in the morning

Random

  • Go camping at least once
  • Explore the local art museum (Ford)
  • Visit the Salem carousel
  • See 150 species of birds
  • Remember that alone time is an important part of my mental health